So fall classes just started not to long ago and i was really looking forward to it. But unfortunatly just within the past week i've hit some huge problems. turns out i've got no friends right now. they all decided to ditch me so i'm left all alone to myself which i really hate because i am SO TERRIFIED of being alone. i try to just not think of everything bad in my life. i try to think of all the good things i can think of but it never works. i am so tired of crying i want all this stupid pain to just go away. i want to be happy and love life but no matter how hard i try i cant. i dont know what to do. everyone back at school thinks i am this total freak and i dont understand why. i've always thought of myself as a fun person to be with and yet i'm always alone. why me?? why why why?? is death the onlt way out of this??